Written Monologue: You guys think you know me but you don't. we've fought together for the last year. Become brothers in arms, laid our lives on the line for each other. But none of you know how I feel. I've done some horrible things in my life we all have. But I've done it because I wanted to not because I had to. We all have, but I've run from it all my life and I don't know if I can take it anymore. You guys see me as this hearo leading you into battle and always succeeding. As think king, but I'm not. I'm a monster. Every night I lie awake and see all the faces of people I've killed and families I've destroyed. We've been told their the enemy and it's our job. But they fight for the same reasons we do. It's destroying me. I don't know how much more of it I can take. How much longer I can be told this lie and live as this "hero." I despise what I've become. I'm losing my mind, and I don't know if I can live with whom I've become. I know I can't. I need help. 1. This semester, you worked on two scenes and created a monologue. What surprised you? This could be something you thought would be challenging but found yourself comfortable doing OR it can be something you found challenging but made it through. I never really thought of myself as the acting type. When I found out I was assigned this class I was a bit angry. But I have to admit I was presently surprised. It was very fun and although I won't be perusing a career in acting, It did help me with my public speaking. Being comfortable to speak in front of people I've never met is something I struggled with. After taking this class I can say it helped a lot and I feel more comfortable speaking to rando people. 2. What advice would you give to a student who is just starting their work on an acting scene? Be confidant in yourself. If you have self confidence and truly believe in your work then you can make it far. If you don't, then it is hard for people to believe in you. You are your own biggest critic and biggest supporter. 3. Did you complete your Student Evaluation sent via email from Banner? Please do so. I have completed it

1. List 7 important examples of your character’s personal given circumstances? (7 sentences) My character is a fireman Worked with the soul Looking for someone to love Looking for someone to love him Has a very extensive family Wants to help the widow Wants to finally have sex 2. List 5 important aspects of the relationship between your character and the character they are speaking to? My character used to work with the widows husband My character wants to date the widow My character wants to feel loved by the widow My character doesn't force anything upon the widow because he knows how she still feels My character wants to finally start a family and feels as if the widow is the one to do it with 3. How do they know each other, what is their relationship, is status important, etc? Do not repeat given circumstances from above. (7 sentences) Their relationship is mutual. We are not informed of how they first met but it can be inferred that it was because the husband and wooer worked together. They don't care about status or money. They share interest in may things as opera and how they both hate small talk. Although they have mutual respect for each other their feelings are different. The wooer is very much in love with the widow and says it many times. And the widow says she has feelings for him but she is still conflicted. Tis is because she can not decide if she is ready to move on from her husband or if she still needs him in her life. 4. What do they want from the character they are speaking to. Be specific. (3 sentences) The wooer is just trying to help her. The widow asked if he could come by and help her clean out her closet of all her husbands stuff. And the wooer accepts because he feels it will most likely help her move on and start to focus on him. 5. Why do they want it? Cite examples from the play. (7 sentences) The widow is trying to move on so she asks for help to get ride of some of her husbands things. She feels as if this is the first step to finally moving on in her life. But she is reluctant to get ride of anything because it still hold value to her. While the wooer took off from work to help her, because he knows she is still attached to her husband. And maybe he was hoping this was the first step for her to start and focus her feelings towards him. 6. What will happen to your character if they do not get what they want from the character they are speaking to? ( 5 sentences) My character actually shows what will happen. He accepts her offer to come over an help so he takes off of work. But once they start he realizes she will not let go of anything. He the becomes angry because he took off of work and she just wasted his time. He the leaves her house in a obviously upset state. 7. What are five tactics/verbs that you character uses? ( 5 words) loving caring helpful anger resentment 8. Why do they use those tactics as opposed to others? example why do they threaten instead of plead? (5 sentences) The first three tactics are used together. His ultimate goal is to make he feel wanted and loved so she will will the same way about him. But once he realizes she is just wasting his time he becomes angry and resentful and leaved her house altogether. 9. How do you think your character sees themselves? What do they think of themselves? (10 sentences) What are they afraid of? (3 sentences) My character seems himself as a genuine man. He comes from a very extensive family. Where everyone can do something. He also feels strong because he is a firefighter and enjoys his job. he is also well educated. He can speak Spanish and enjoys going to the opera. He also sees himself as a very caring man and someone who would be good for the widow. He wants to love her and he does. But also wants her love as well. He afraid of not being loved by the widow. After all of this trying to just fall short. And if probably pressured by his extensive family to find someone. 10. How do they protect themselves? (3 sentences) My character protects themselves by voicing his opinion. What I mean by that is he always says how he feels and speaks his mind. This way no one can make false assumptions about him. 11. What makes them happy? (3 sentences) He seems to be very proud and happy about his family. Always talking about his cousins and how they can do all these different things. And the widow make shim happy. 12. In what ways are you similar to your character and in what ways are you different. (10 sentences) There aren't many similarities. One is that like the wooer, I have an extensive family. I have over 20 cousins and all of them are unique in their own way. Unlike the wooer I am not a fire an. I also don't speak Spanish and hate opera. I do speak a little Italian. And I do from time to time enjoy Mexican food. Also like the wooer I consider myself an caring person. And if one of my friends or someone I love ask for help I will stop what im doing and help them. 13. Attach a photo of your what your character might look like to you. I do not care about age, race, gender, for the image. Maybe it is what they are wearing? Maybe it is how they are standing? Maybe it is an actor you could imagine playing the role in a movie?

The name of the piece I saw was called, Vandershtok. In the final moments of the piece The main character leaves a scientist he meets in the woods. The main character goes wandering through the woods. As he wanders he touches leaves and is brought visions of other things and people. It ends with the character sitting by a fire in the woods, dark and alone. This piece is an interactive play. You make choices that determine what your outcome is. And this is tied into the moral of the play. Which is do we really know what is real and what isn’t or do we just make aimless decisions that guide our path. I really liked how it was interactive. Rather than just watching a play with a given plot you can choose. And if you wanted to you could rewatch the play and choose differently and see the outcomes. I also liked the vibrant colors and “trippy” feelings that were presented. It’s very different from any other play I have witnessed. The beginning was a little confusing. It was as if you were in a virtually reality game just viewing very little. Then when the whole screen went green and you just appeared in the woods was also strange. But as you keep following the play and interacting it became a lot clearer as to what was going on. While observing the play the main character meets a faceless scientist standing in the woods. The scientist is trying to interpret the mysteries of the woods and what a dream really implies. The scientist was evaluating the woods and all of it’s mysteries. He wanted to explore all it had to offer to help and procure information about his overall goal. What is a dream and how do we know if we are dreaming. I actually really enjoyed the performance. It was very hands on which I was not expecting. I also liked how it was quite minimalistic yet at the same time very well produced and you could tell a lot of post production work went into it. I really felt connected to the performance when given choices. Rather than following the lot, you made your own. It was as if I was the main character in the play. It kept me intrigued and wanting to continue to make choices. And when I did make a choice I was able to see the outcome. I actually rewatched it and chose differently from the first time. To see how the story would vary and see all the possible options.

1. Notate an example of the character's giving circumstance that is particularly relevant to the scene. Robin Williams character is Matt Damon's therapist and is confronting him on an altercation they had in a previous scene. 2. Notate what the character wants in this particular scene. Robin Williams character wants to help Matt Damon's character with what's going on in his life. 3. Notate what the characters is doing to get what they want. Robin Williams character is opening up about his life and what he's been through to try and relate to Matt Damon's character.