You guys think you know me but you don't. we've fought together for the last year. Become brothers in arms, laid our lives on the line for each other. But none of you know how I feel. I've done some horrible things in my life we all have. But I've done it because I wanted to not because I had to. We all have, but I've run from it all my life and I don't know if I can take it anymore. You guys see me as this hearo leading you into battle and always succeeding. As think king, but I'm not. I'm a monster. Every night I lie awake and see all the faces of people I've killed and families I've destroyed. We've been told their the enemy and it's our job. But they fight for the same reasons we do. It's destroying me. I don't know how much more of it I can take. How much longer I can be told this lie and live as this "hero." I despise what I've become. I'm losing my mind, and I don't know if I can live with whom I've become. I know I can't. I need help.
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